Muscle Memoirs

Im so excited that I have actually gotten quite a few views on this thing!

Day 3 (yesterday):

I'll start off by telling you that I hit a curve in the fine line I had been walking, not terribly, but as previously mentioned, I've been dealing with this f'ed up anxiety that sometimes gets the best of me. So ... I had a beer and 4 mini reeses, I did not even have half of the beer but boy what I had of it was delicious! Some sort of Karl Strauss brown ale.

Meals for the day:

1/2 cup cottage cheese/ 1/4 cup raspberries
grape tomatoes/2 tbsp hummus/ string cheese
left over little meat loaf from last night

Today was a semi-short day at work, so I only packed 3 meals.

Boy! can I tell you.. muscle memory is one hell of a psychedelic body function that we should all be thankful to have. Although it is only day 3 (well day 4, technically), it feels as though things are where they are supposed to be, and my muscles are starting to feel a lot tighter. This Thanksgiving, I will skip the pie, and give thanks for muscle memory.

Because I am such an antsy pants, I decided to hop on the scale today, and believe it or not, I was down to 139.4! So excited and motivated to continue. ☺

My exercise again consisted of 25 sit-ups/squats with a 5lb dumbbell, 20 push-ups and a 2.5 mile run, and this time it was a run as Aiden wanted to race the whole flippin way. I'd get tired and want to stop, his words to me would be: "MOM! NO SLEEP TILL BROOKLYN!" haha. Staff members from the local businesses are starting to pop out here and there and cheer us on (we've been following the same route).

For dinner I made shirataki noodles (low carb-tofu noodles) with summer squash and tofu. The sauce was great, it consisted of peanut butter, sesame oil and low sodium soy sauce. The overall taste was good, but those noodles.. uggh. I will give them a second try prepared differently before I sat that I hate them, but as of now... I hate them. I feel for gluten intolerant individuals who have to sacrifice and switch to these as a pasta alternative. I think I will stick with my limited intake of whole wheat pasta.

Its very rewarding to have the little man by my side, supporting me and taking in every one of my actions; from food choices to getting our sweat on, that little guy is on the right path to lifelong health.

I have been a flood of emotions lately, very anxious and such... I've been working on controlling my emotions this whole year, which for the most part have been under control. Then a few weeks back, a situation arose that ticked my tock and now I feel on edge for life. I'm going to try to practice the breathing technique each night and see if that alleviates some of my anxiety before medicating myself. Regardless... I refuse to lose to my inner demons. They can go to hell.

Dizzaayy TWO

My motivation levels successfully leaked into day 2..I really wish it was day 35. Meals were beautifully packed once again, and consisted of the following:

Dark Chocolate Medifast Shake

1 cup plain greek yogurt/1packet splenda/1/4 cup raspberries (in season and SO delicious)

Leftover Couscous from last night (so delicious)

String Cheese

celery and 2 tbsp of peanut butter

I never got to the peanut butter, but did have celery with my string cheese. Water was great today! Although I did have to keep checking myself to make sure I got it all in (that sounded gross). 

2.5 miles ran, along with 50 sit-ups/squats and 20 push-ups. I ALMOST flaked on the exercise today, was feeling emotionally challenged and really wanted an alcoholic beverage. Thank goodness, Aiden is on board with the bike rides and acted as a "mini-pusher" and got me out there. Once it was completed, I realized those endorphins can definitely give  a lot more than what you can obtain from a beer.  

Oh! I almost forgot to tell you, for dinner I baked up these delicious mini-meatloaves with the thinnest layer of Red potato icing ( really just mashed up potato with a bit of greek yogurt and garlic). I was ecstatic that the weather permitted the use of the over, because these guys were delish. Here is what they consisted of: 

1 lb turkey

1 zucchini, shredded

1 egg white

11/2 tsp garlic powder with parsley

dash of paprika

I baked 3 individual little loaves and had one for dinner, saved one for lunch (when you love to cook, there's nothing better than leftovers for lunch. 

So that was my day. The nights are a struggle, but luckily, I had one little Medifast Smores bar to save my life. ☺I promise I will begin writing about my day the day of, rather than the next day.

On another note, my 26th birthday is around the corner. Its weird when birthdays come around, at least personally, I take the whole month prior to and acknowledge the metaphorical succeses and failures that I have seen in the past year. This year is such a mixed emotion for me, I feel  I've gained as much as I have lost. Working on focusing on the gains....but not the weight gains. I will probably get a tattoo or two for my birthday, hopefully 2. One will be "bon appetit" on my wrist, and the other will be the fly from the poem book, The Spider and The Fly" for children. If you've never read it, do so, or just google the image and share your thoughts. 

Share your thoughts??? Is anyone even out there........anyone?

Day 1

Yesterday was day 1 back on track. As day 1s typically go...it worked out without an issue. I woke up feeling pretty motivated and packed my meals for the day which consisted of the following:

Meal # 1 - MF Dark Chocolate Shake
Meal #2 - 10 baby carrots/10 wheat thins/2tbsp pesto hummus
Meal #3-  2 cups romaine/1/2c broccoli/ 6 oz. chicken breast / 2tbsp balsamic dressing
Meal #4 - Light string cheese and 1/4 cup grapes

I had a hard time getting all of my water in, in between reports and the other 10 million things I had to do. Come to think of it, the fact that I am able to find time to eat these meals throughout the day, yet do not stop to quench my thirst is highly amusing to me.. or I just love to eat.

My 5 year old son and I like to do the jog and ride thing...he rides, I run..and we went for 3 miles. Didn't do too bad considering its been a while and the fact that I've paired summer beers with its best friend the cigarette for about 3 months.

Dinner was phenomenal: Quinoa with sweet potato and garlic sauteed kale... even Aiden loved it.

I continued the first day motivation and got 50 sit-ups, 30 push-ups, 30 squats and 25 jumping jacks in. Felt pretty good about it. Then again, this was just day 1, lets hope this is the last day 1 I have in a VERY long time.

put the cream puffs down

Not only did I feel terrible today... in addition, I did something I have not done for just about 5 years ... I hit 142lbs. I've happily (for the most part) maintained a weight of 130ish since I first lost 60 lbs, and for those of you whom have ever experienced this, the place I am in at the moment, is not the happiest. Blame it on the  decadent and delcious foodsabd beverages that I have indulged in over the summer, depression, emotional eating ...blah,blah,blah. Regardless of the case, I have allowed this to happen. And I refuse to. So I decided to blog. I decided to tell the world about my fat girl problems in hopes that they would eventually turn into a six-pack.

I'm not a fatty, I just eat a lot.

Well see how this goes.....